It's crazy to think that I'm two tests away from finishing my freshman year of college. It seemed like it took forever waiting for high school to end so that I could get here and it went by just like that. Anyways, since I already wrote a reflection of my first semester and in my Reader Survey a few of you said you wanted more college posts, I wanted to give some advice to the class of 2021 in honor of National College Decision Day. I asked my followers on Twitter and Instagram to give some advice as well, which you can find at the end of the post:
I have tried to not play into the HBCU versus PWI argument, but the more that I read tweets from other Black people about how HBCUs are less than PWIs, I feel no other option than to say something. Having attended schools that were not predominantly Black (I looked up my high school’s demographics and according to data from my sophomore year, minorities represented 58% of the school’s population. However, Black people represented 34% while white people represented 42%) I can attest to both sides of simply being in an educational environment with people who look like me and being in an educational environment with people who didn’t. The biggest change for me coming to college was representation. Before coming to Howard, I only ever had three Black teachers, my senior year I was one of two Black section leaders in my school’s marching band (we both lead the flute section, by the way), and was one of the few Black girls on the Varsity tennis team. To come to Howard and be in classrooms where, aside from the few white kids or non-Black people of color, I am surrounded by Black faces, apart of a majority Black marching band, and see athletes playing sports that back home were dominated by white kids has done more for my confidence and academic performance than anything. So to see other Black people, who I applaud for striving towards higher education because that is a feat in and of itself, constantly arguing as to why one type of school is better or worse than the other is mind boggling. To give my two cents and leave it at that, here are my opinions on some common arguments I hear against HBCUs:
I know I'm not alone in admitting that I was sitting on the edge of my seat everyday since hearing the line "y'all got til April the 7th to get your shit together." I didn't know what exactly to expect from Kendrick's new project but I knew at the very least it was going to be nothing less than amazing and DAMN. definitely met that expectation.
untitled unmastered and To Pimp a Butterfly kept me hanging from a thread until Kendrick dropped "The Heart Part 4" but I knew K.Dot was really about to do something when I heard "HUMBLE." It was on repeat for the past week especially, and absolutely nothing is going to change now that the full album is out.
While I'm no music expert, I know a good project when I hear it, so here is my song-by-song review of the project who gave its title as my first reaction: DAMN.
It's been a while since I've written something for my blog. If you haven't already, check out my "What's Your Story?" project. Also, quick thanks to everyone who was featured for making that happen in the time that it did, you guys made the process super easy for me being in St. Louis and trying to get out a post a day for five days in a row.
I haven't been writing for my blog recently because of a lack of inspiration to put it simply. I haven't been moved to write anything soul baring or anything that I feel would push me to be a better writer or to step out of my comfort zone. Honestly, I don't even know what I want to write about right now. I don't know what it is but my focus and energy towards my work, academic or otherwise, just isn't as consistent as it has been in the past. And I don't want to continue putting all of my energy towards extra projects right now if I'm slipping in other areas of my life. So basically what I'm lacking right now is balance.
I've tried a lot of things that I thought would help me find that balance again, most importantly going home, but it just didn't put me in the same mindset that I thought it would. I've been trying to do other things that usually help me find balance, but for some reason they just aren't working anymore...so I guess I'll try something different.
The reason I'm writing this is because I want my blog and myself, for that matter, to just be better overall. Everyone has to start from somewhere and learn and work their way up but, for me, the problem of my lack of motivation comes into play. I'm not passionate about the small things I have to do in order to be able to do the big things.
What I'm trying to get at is that I'm in the process of figuring out how to get motivated about the small stuff so that I can give my all to what I'm truly passionate about (once I figure out what that is). I don't know if it matters, but I just need to give myself the time and space to find the inspiration and discipline that I had before so that I can produce more meaningful and higher quality work in all aspects of my life. Every season of your life requires a different and better version of yourself and I guess I'm just trying to figure out what that looks like for me right now. Thanks again to everyone for the positive feedback on "WYS?", while I'm on this little break I have some ideas for future projects and blog posts that I'll still be working on so stay tuned.